LISTEN

No words I can say 

This time I have myself to blame

It's been a whole month 

Since you told me we shoulf just give up

You gave up 

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I didn't want to hold on

Just wanted control of 

Something I don't know of 

I cannot let go of

The simple temptation 

of making you face in 

Something I embraced

when I should've encased it

and now you won't listen

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I'll just sing until my

heart seeps through my skin 

sing until you're really Listenin'

Oh, Listen

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Go on and take 

two giant steps backward, turn away

it was a mistake

thinkin' I could decode a whole brain

when my own is in flames

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I didn't want to hold on

Just wanted control of 

a part of your mind that

no one really knows of

Your inward reflection 

was not mine to mess with 

I kept trying to guess

when I should've just left it

and now you're smile's different

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I'll just sing until my

heart seeps through my skin 

sing until you're really Listenin'

Oh, Listen

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So much time spent reading into you

I forgot to read into myself too

two giant steps backward I can see

I have no clue as to what I might

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Sing until my

heart seeps through my skin 

sing until you're really Listenin'

Oh, Listen

 

 

 

 

 

SURFACE

Let it run rampant through my brain and veins and I'll be sane 
Prescribed or not I feel that knot each time I try to change 
Let it rush in and I'll begin to forget my sin 
Mountains or molehills all that weight becomes paper thin 

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I pray to stay above the surface 
I play to stay above the surface 
Ask you to stay to stay above the surface
I pray to stay above the surface 
And I'll pay to stay above the surface 
I take to stay above the surface 
It stays away when I'm above the surface 
There is no pain when I'm above the surface 

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Silence reminds me why I hide the truth with smiles I feign 
Hand me the drink and I'll rethink why I try to change
Every qualifying thought I caught in consciousness 
Fades away when faded I'm fading 

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I pray to stay above the surface 
I play to stay above the surface 
Ask you to stay to stay above the surface
I pray to stay above the surface 
I'll pay to stay above the surface 
I take to stay above the surface 
It stays away when I'm above the surface 
There is no pain when I'm above the surface 

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Please turn the light off
Take all your things 
Leave, leave me to sleep it off 
Tomorrow 
We will do the same damn thing 

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I pray to stay 
Above the surface
I ask you to stay 
Above the surface 
Because I'm fading 

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GODS

I hate navigating

situations with my dress

all the fake smiles and facades and nods

to act like I'm impressed 

And my satire lines and sighs should be

sure sign of disrespect 

but it always flies over inflated heads 

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it f%^&s with my head 

I'm strong inside I know what's right 

outside it's different 

holistically dissonant

I turn to mine I roll my eyes 

they have good intentions but they do not listen they don't know why 

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My head and my heart are like blurred lines 

I never wanted this 

we never wanted this 

my northern perspective has changed 

does everyone behave this way 

my spirit was not meant to break 

now thin pieces there for the taking 

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(I'm staying at the W I'm double your age does that work for you) 

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Be you be her 

be you be her be nice 

be she she she her her her her 

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The man is a god I've been taught 

only with strong women in my blood and experience I have thoughts 

that lead me to know in my heart

we are all gods 

or God knows 

we've been wrong a lot 

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